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125

Date submitted

02.02.2010

Date Updated

02.08.2010

Just Scared

by Katrina Santillan

Poem

It's not that I wanna have it, it's just that I wanna deserve it.

I guess to some extent you get used to being alone. You get used to not expecting phone calls and having nothing to do at night. You don't expect to turn around to open arms any longer. Your thoughts echo through your head, with no one to share them with. All in all, being alone isn't terrible, it just hurts like hell.

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I’m scared

I’m going to end up alone

I’m always going to be somebody’s friend

Or sister, or confident

Never quite somebody’s... everything

 

Just once

I want someone to look at me right away

And think I was beautiful.

Not after they get to know me,

Or after they see inside my soul

 

Just once

I want to walk inside a room

And Light up, not blend in

 

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Cup-o-Soup

wrote 114 days ago

I really like this. It encapsulates every 14 -16 year old girls emotions (at least mine and the ninety percent who aren't models)! You have an honesty and vulnerability that shows so beautifully. I'm adding it to my pick list.

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Shiraz

wrote 151 days ago

Wow. These are feelings so many people have felt, but you have chosen to voice, and voice well. Well done!

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Scarce

wrote 160 days ago

I like the last line. It has got a very deep meaning and a good imagery. Keep writing!

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isabella2296

wrote 179 days ago

I love your very last line, "And Light up, not blend in". A lot of emotion in this, and it's great to read to poem that doesn't focus on love or break ups or something, you know? Wonderful work! I also love the "I'm always going to be somebody's friend"; it actually reminds me a lot of Ron Weasley from Harry Potter :D

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Starlight-poet

wrote 183 days ago

Goes to my watch list

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Starlight-poet

wrote 183 days ago

This is amazing, yet poignant. I love the intensity of the flow. Keep writting dear

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Starlight-poet

wrote 183 days ago

This is amazing, yet poignant. I love the intensity of the flow. Keep writting dear

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jsturmisguidedghost

wrote 184 days ago

Very intense poem. I can relate to this poem. I like it a lot---the easy flow, the honesty, the way you've portrayed how many people feel or have felt. Good job! ;)

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Nabila

wrote 184 days ago

wow...deep and intense! i simply adore the fears u've portrayed here!good job! :)

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Just-A-Witch

wrote 185 days ago

I think that you have some true talent in this department. It's very deep, and very short, which makes a cool combination. I love this, and not only do the words have meaning, but they also flow together. I haven't seen much of that on here.

I can really see where you're coming from here. To stand out, instead of staying with the background, is just something even the really nonsocial girls and women want. I can say that from a really nonsocial girl point of view. I hope you keep writing!

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Courtney Driscoll

wrote 185 days ago

I think you beautifully depicted every woman's dark inner fears. It is especially hard to conquer those fears without self confidence. Because confidence IS the light, the glow, when you walk into a room :)
You have a great use of imagery and a very nice way with choosing your words that really speak to the reader emotionally :) Great job

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SERAorchid

wrote 195 days ago

i really like this
nicely done

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cyc

wrote 197 days ago

Very relatable. I feel the same as this narrator in the poem.
I really that line about wanting to be somebody's everything is really nice.
Nice work :)

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CJIZZLE

wrote 205 days ago

I agree with Charles! Everyone will have their time when someone's eyes meet them... And when your eyes meet someone else. Anyways, great job on this! I like the emotion you sent to us right away! X-D
~CJIZZLE

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Ragmaan

wrote 205 days ago

Question: Is the L in Light up intentional? Just something that was distracting me >>

This accurately portrays the emotions of those that feel unwanted in a nice condensed form. Nicely done ^^
(But those that feel unwanted should perk up! There is always someone that cares. And will want to know you).

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Leah Marie Rose Majdic

wrote 205 days ago

This is amazing. I can totally relate to ya cuz i'm currently feeling like that too but don't worry but be optomistic

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NinjaPoet

wrote 205 days ago

I think everyone can relate to this poem. and don't worry you'll have yours :)

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_Luvs_2_Write_

wrote 205 days ago

wow, this is amazing. It's short, but powerful. Great job :)

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dallaschick22

wrote 205 days ago

wow i love this! its very powerful in such few words

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Aria313

wrote 209 days ago

I love this poem! I really relate to it. I can't promise you that you'll stay there for very long, but for now you are defiantly on my picks list.

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mandyem92

wrote 211 days ago

OMG! i love this poem. I can totally and utterly relate to it! ur very good!!!

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WindowChild

wrote 212 days ago

I can completely, COMPLETELY relate to this. This is how I always feel, and I know how terrible it is. The words are really jarring here, and really get across the message. Beautiful, and very touching.

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Samme

wrote 212 days ago

You Will... Every one is someones everything... and eventually someone will notice you like they have never noticed any one else. You are beautiful.... we all are..

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BOLAX3

wrote 212 days ago

Nice Poem I like it It has passion

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finding-forever.

wrote 212 days ago

This was so great. Short, but simple, and heartbreaking at the same time it made the reader smile. Everyone is insecure sometimes, and this portrayed realistic emotions really really well. Great job! :)

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Kurt 58

wrote 213 days ago

well versed Katrina, plus i can relate...my thoughts are the same as yours..am i going to end up alone?..i wrote a piece called "gone" in reference to someone i had feelings for and since that relationship has ended, i haven't meet anyone since and i dont i think i ever will.......anyways, good job Katrina and keep writing from the heart.....Kurt

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Charles Pendelton

wrote 213 days ago

Trust me, you will never end up alone. I can tell you from a man's point of view that if that is really your picture up
there, you have absolutely nothing to worry about. I am surprised that when you walk around your school, you do
not sense or feel people 'checking you out.' Dispel those thoughts immediately because they are foolish thoughts.
Your emotions are lying to you because of your own insecurities! Tear them from you and cast them to the dogs!

*If I was young again and saw you, I wouldn't think twice about telling you how lovely you look. . . Honestly!*

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Sammi207

wrote 213 days ago

Well, that made me very sad. It's quite good; it just hits a certain chord with me that's very sad. It's beautiful, though. The lines 'Think I was beautiful. Not after they get to know me, or after they see inside my soul' are strong and good and sad.
Very good job.

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MissMaddyMarie

wrote 214 days ago

Awww. Very well done. =D

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**lovestruck girl**

wrote 218 days ago

I really like this and i can relate 2 it
Great job!!! =)

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Rebecca Ryals Russell

wrote 218 days ago

The reader can feel the pain of the girl who just wants to be noticed. Nice use of language to get that across.

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